Spiritual Guidance Blog
The Blessings of Life
by Robert Meagher on 01/03/25
“Words
are windows, or they're walls,
They
sentence us, or set us free.
When
I speak and when I hear,
Let
the love light shine through me.”
- Ruth Bebermeyer
The past eight months has been an unprecedented period of
personal and spiritual education for me. The recent, intensive learning began
in May (2024) when my partner was plunged into long-term care due to paralysis.
My partner lives with advanced stages of Parkinsons and dementia.
The preceding eight months has been one of purification.
Home life with my partner of 25 years has been stripped away. My physical home
was stripped away (I have relocated into an apartment). Much of my work
activities were stripped away, as I devoted all of my energies to helping my
partner transition into long-term care and selling our home. What remaining
social life I had, outside of institutional settings, was stripped away. There
was little left. If there had been any facades, any coverings or veils, that my
ego was still projecting, these too had been stripped away. I was ego-less. Not
‘without’ ego, but with less of it. I felt helpless, vulnerable beyond compare,
and with no control over all that was unfolding.
As I begin to emerge out of this period, some precious
insights are starting to crystalize into beautiful gems. First, there is an
awareness that unlike any other time in my life I know nothing. I do not know
what anything outside of me is for. I do not understand anything outside of me.
I cannot even be sure I can explain what anything outside is for or even means.
Second, there is an awareness that all of it, all that is seemingly around me,
people, places, events, means nothing. It is ALL meaningless. Third, and
perhaps most precious, is an awareness that I no longer need to strive to
understand anything outside of me. I no longer need to strive to make sense of,
or find meaning in, anything outside of me. All I need do, if anything, is
accept all that appears to be unfolding outside of me.
The preceding awareness has been tremendously freeing. I can
certainly acknowledge all that is unfolding outside of me, but now I give
myself permission to not have to make sense of it or understand what it
is all about. It simply is. As a dear soul friend has often shared with me
about that which he experiences unfolding outside of him…all I need do is
acknowledge “Oh, that just happened.”…and move on. No judgement; no thought
beyond what just happened. Just an awareness; and then a letting go.
Until now I have written about what is seemingly going on
outside of me. What about the inside? What about all that is going on inside of
me? Well…there is little to no difference. The outside if merely a
manifestation of what is going on inside. It is equally helpful to be aware of
what is going on ‘inside’ as ‘outside,’ but it is equally meaningless and
pointless. All of my inner work over the years, while valid and a stepping
stone to present-day awareness, was, in itself meaningless and pointless. I don’t
mean that the inner work was not worth doing, but that, in and of itself, it
was meaningless and pointless. It was only what I projected on the inner work
that had any meaning or point.
Even my meditation practice has not gone unaffected in my
awareness. For several years I have allowed less and less structure to lay over
my meditation practice. Yes, I continue to sit daily in stillness, but I have
moved almost entirely to a meditation practice of ‘allowing’ no structure or
set way of doing things. If there is a goal, it is simply to be still and allow
my thinking mind to come to rest. This practice of stilling the mind is, in an
of itself, like all other illusions. However, it differs in one very important
way; at least it doesn’t create any other illusions of myself, or anything I
may perceive to be unfolding outside of me.
These ‘dark nights of the soul’ are precious gifts. The
preceding eight months has allowed me to deepen in my trust of life and Spirit.
So long as I surrender to the unfolding, the TRUE gifts of life will reveal
themselves to me. But so long as I hold back, so long as I refuse to go in to
the dark, I walk away from my healing. There is light in the dark. The darkness
is not there to consume me; it is there to set me free.
Robert Meagher has
been ordained as an Interfaith Minister and certified as a Sacred Attention Therapy (SAT) Therapist. Robert is the Founder and Spiritual
Director for Spiritual Guidance and Co-Founder of the Center for Human Awakening.
Forgive Them…For They Know Not What They Do
by Robert Meagher on 12/16/24
Many of you may be familiar with the famous biblical scene
of Jesus’ crucifixion and him uttering the words “Father, forgive them; for
they know not what they do.” (Luke 23:34 KJV) There has been much written about
the meaning of Jesus’ words. But I recently had an experience that gave me
personal insight to what may have been going through Jesus’ head when he
uttered those words.
One day in November, I was leaving the long-term care home
after having visited my partner on that day. It was a trying visit and I was
feeling rather ‘beaten up’ emotionally. I was walking with my head down, with a
heavy heart and feeling dejected.
As I approached the parking lot where my car was parked, I
lifted my head. At that precise moment, a car backed up into the driver’s side
of my car. I will never forget the sound of crunching metal. As the car moved
away from my car, I could see the indentation in my car door. I was stunned! I
froze momentarily; only to be jolted out of my daze when the driver backed up
into my car for a second time!
My awareness of the unfolding events expanded as I realized
the driver of the car was an 80-perhaps-90-year-old-man who was very confused
about how to get out of the parking space he was in. His choice of maneuvers
was placing him in a more precarious position with every turn of the wheel.
A host of thoughts started racing through my mind…
How many more times is this guy going to hit my car? How can
this man be allowed to have a driver’s license? How on earth is he going to get
out of this parking lot without hitting my car, or other cars, repeatedly?
I pondered my options…
I knew I could choose to do the normal thing…go over to the
driver, inform him he had backed in to my car multiple times, damaging my
car…and proceed to exchange insurance information so that I could make a claim
for repair of the damage. I can remember thinking… “I may be doing everyone a
favor—me, the driver, unsuspecting bystanders, etc.—by having the driver
prosecuted so that he wouldn’t harm himself or anyone else by his driving
skills, or lack thereof. The next thought that ran through my mind was… “Will
this old fella even have insurance?”
As the thoughts continued to race through my head, one of
the attendants in the parking hut ran over to the man and his car, recognizing
what had happened and what was unfolding. The parking attendant patiently and
compassionately helped the elderly man out of his car, drove the car out of the
parking lot, and helped the man (who could not walk on his own) back to his
car.
As all this was happening, I simply sat on a nearby curb,
watching it all unfold. A calm came over me. There was an awareness that I
could not change what just happened (i.e., the man backing in to my car twice),
as it all happened so quickly. I watched with much gratitude as the parking
attendant helped the old man so that no further damage was done to my car, or
other cars in the parking lot.
The old man got in his car and drove off. I said a prayer
that he would arrive at his destination safely, without harming himself or
anyone else.
At this point you may deduce I chose not to confront the
driver of the car and collect the necessary information to make an insurance
claim. Why? Well, after surveying the situation, I asked myself… “What’s the
point?” The old man had no idea what he was doing. I could see the confusion in
his eyes. He had no idea how to maneuver his car out of the parking spot. He
was afraid. He was so afraid that he had no awareness that he was backing in to
my car. He was aware there was a car in back of him, but he had no awareness he
had made contact with the car. He just needed to get himself out of there! He
simply did not know what he was doing.
My decision to not confront the man was not a righteous one.
My decision was rooted in the wisdom teachings to “Don’t sweat the small stuff.
And remember, it’s all small stuff.” It was a decision to just let it go. It
was a decision for my peace. And that peace is only possible through
forgiveness. Would I condemn myself for having done the same thing if the
scenario was reversed? Then why would I condemn this elderly man? My car was
damaged, but not disabled. The car would be fine. The car would still get me
from point A to point B. After all was said and thought and done, the man
backing in to my car simply didn’t matter. Goodness knows, I had what felt like
far more important things to think about.
Was this what Jesus was thinking about when he uttered the
word “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.”? Had Jesus arrived
at the state of mind where he just let it all go? Was it peace Jesus was
pursuing and he realized the only way to obtain that peace was to forgive
everything and all? Had Jesus arrived at a state of awareness that, in the end,
what was being done to him simply didn’t matter? We’ll never know. But are
there opportunities in our lives to just let things go. To acknowledge, even
witness, the unfolding, but to choose for peace in our response to that
unfolding?
Robert Meagher has
been ordained as an Interfaith Minister and certified as a Sacred Attention Therapy (SAT) Therapist. Robert is the Founder and Spiritual
Director for Spiritual Guidance and Co-Founder of the Center for Human Awakening.
Life Shows Us The Way
by Robert Meagher on 12/15/24
I have become increasingly interested in nutrition
throughout my life. I am now at a state in my life where I take my diet and
nutrition seriously, watching what I eat, when I eat it, and how I eat
the food I prepare for myself. I rarely purchase store-bought / ready made
food, opting instead to make my own food. I don’t eat processed sugars. I am
conscious of the dietary components of the foods I eat. My interest in food and
nutrition has grown to the point where I have decided to head back to
university in January to study Human Kinetics and delve more deeply into the
relationship among human anatomy, physiology, exercise, and nutrition.
As noted above, I have moved away from eating processed
sugars. If I want or need to add sweetness to the food I cook or bake, I will
substitute sugar for honey or maple syrup. Honey has been in the news a lot in
the past few years, questioning its nutritional value and health benefit. I’m
not going to get into the concerns about honey; all to say there are some
healthier alternatives to honey that can add some sweetness to your food, if
desired.
My primary breakfast food is oatmeal. I add nuts, raisins
(for sweetness), fresh fruit, and fresh berries most mornings. Until recently,
I had always added a teaspoon of honey to my morning oatmeal; occasionally I
would substitute maple syrup for honey, but I find maple syrup too sweet
sometimes.
On a recent shopping excursion, I picked up a container of
molasses for a recipe I was planning to make. I arrived home, opened up the
cupboard to put the molasses away, and realized I already had a full container
of molasses in the cupboard. “Hmmm,”…I thought. “I don’t use molasses very much
(in my cooking or baking). “I don’t want it to go to waste.”, I thought. “How
could I use molasses on a more regular basis?” I asked myself. “Why not try it
in my morning oatmeal, instead of honey.”
So, the next morning I tried some molasses in my oatmeal,
instead of honey. As I was enjoying my oatmeal, out of curiosity, I grabbed the
honey and oatmeal containers and started to read the nutritional labels on the
products. I was quite surprised to read that not only did the molasses contain
a quarter less sugar per serving, but the molasses contained far more vitamins
and nutrients than honey. I did some further research online and learned just
how much more healthy molasses is than honey. Needless to say, I have switched
to using molasses in my morning oatmeal.
Enough of the talk about food and nutrition. That’s not what
this article is about…
Life has a way of showing us the way. Life has a way of
leading us where we need to go. I think it’s ‘very’ interesting that with my
increasing interest in health and nutrition, that one day I make the
Alzheimer’s-like mistake of picking up a duplicate container of molasses.
Actually, it wasn’t a mistake at all! I think it was life’s way of making me
aware of something that was aligned with my heart’s intention at the time. I
think this happens all the time in our lives. Some may call it serendipity.
Some may call it coincidence. Some may call it ‘dumb luck’! I think of it as
Divine intervention.
Robert Meagher has
been ordained as an Interfaith Minister and certified as a Sacred Attention Therapy (SAT) Therapist. Robert is the Founder and Spiritual
Director for Spiritual Guidance and Co-Founder of the Center for Human Awakening.
Space Transformation
by Robert Meagher on 12/14/24
When my partner was plunged into the long-term care system
in May, most everything I was doing stopped. I stopped most of my ministry
work. I stopped facilitating groups. I stopped endurance cycling outside
(although I continued to enjoy indoor workouts). I stopped any remaining social
activities I was engaging in. All my energies were devoted to helping my
partner, as best I could, get settled in a long-term care facility.
Now, seven months later, my partner is settled in a
long-term care facility. I have sold our home, moved, and settled in to a new
place. Now, seven months later, life is starting to settle down a little. I
feel space in my life again; that is, some time to sit and relax, space and
time to ‘smell the proverbial roses.’ I have begun to think about resuming some
of the activities I enjoyed before May. But not so fast!...
I have made a conscious decision to re-evaluate everything I
was doing prior to May. As I consider engaging in any/all activities, I will
evaluate whether I want to resume the activity. I have made a conscious
decision to not fill up all my time and energies. I have made a conscious
decision to allow ‘space’ in my life. This feels like such a critical juncture
in my life; and giving myself the permission to be patient with the unfolding
feels important. I need time to watch and witness what may emerge. I don’t want
to numb any new, creative ideas that may come my way because I have no time or
space to explore them. For example,..
I am intending to return to University in January to study
Human Kinetics. In recent years I have developed a keen interest in the
relationship among human anatomy, physiology, physical exercise and nutrition.
While I have enjoyed my self-directed study in recent years, I want to return
to an academic setting and add some structure to my learning. What I am so
looking forward to is inviting this new learning experience ‘for me,’ not for a
degree (i.e., piece of paper), but for the simple joy of learning.
As my life transforms and emerges from a tumultuous
purification of sorts, I will consciously observe the unfoldings, giving myself
permission to ‘feel’ the unfolding. I will be patient with myself and give
myself the time I need to adjust and embrace what emerges.
This time feels like a great ‘reset;’ an opportunity to
start over again, sort of. Of course, I am not going to jettison everything I
did before. The foundation of my ministry work will remain. I intend to
continue my psychotherapy practice and spiritual groups. I intend to continue
my collaboration with my spiritual teacher, Richard Harvey. But all of these
activities will be streamlined. Some newness will emerge, for which I look
forward to.
Transforming one’s life, and what one does with one’s life,
is invigorating and rejuvenating. Life can get pretty full. Sometimes this
fullness creeps up on us. Sometimes life gives us some calamity that makes life
spill over and we are forced to make abrupt adjustments. It’s all carefully
orchestrated to guide us through our own learning and healing, however.
Regardless of what’s unfolding, whether we perceive it as good or bad, it will
pass. Something new will emerge. Nothing stays the same, except our love. That
is the one constant, love. Let love guide us through life and the
transformations of space we experience.
Robert Meagher has
been ordained as an Interfaith Minister and certified as a Sacred Attention Therapy (SAT) Therapist. Robert is the Founder and Spiritual
Director for Spiritual Guidance and Co-Founder of the Center for Human Awakening.
Sometimes It Is Better To Have The Questions
by Robert Meagher on 12/01/24
I remember a dramatic scene in a Canadian TV show featuring
a doctor and raging patient. The doctor was trying to diagnose a patient’s
condition. The patient was irritable and cranky. At one point, the patient
lashed out against the doctor, saying “You Docs have all the answers, don’t
you!?” The doctor replied, “No, I don’t have the answers, but I do have the
questions.”
Over the past few months, I have written about things being
stripped away in my life (home life with my partner, my home, my work) and the
awareness that none of these things are what or who I am. As I process the
unfoldings, I have been blessed with the opportunity to ask myself some
questions, some of those questions I have shared in previous passages. But I
wanted to summarize them here, in one article.
The first set of questions are from a grieving state; that
part of me that is sensing loss and that is grieving that loss. Those questions
include:
·
What will be left when I get through this?
·
What will I look like?
·
What will I feel like?
·
What will remain?
But then, another more hopeful set of questions emerged that
looks at the situation and unfoldings through a different lens. Those questions
include:
·
What will emerge?
·
What could possibly be in store for me?
·
What is life choreographing for me?
·
Where is life leading me?
·
What does life want for me?
·
What is life GIVING me?
The questions alone have a healing affect. The answers to
the questions are somewhat irrelevant. The awareness of the questions
themselves brings hope. The questions ground me in a trust that life will
provide for me. I am brought an awareness that I don’t need the answers. I am
reminded that all I need do is allow life to unfold on its terms and to remain
at peace with its unfoldings. Life will reveal itself to me; I need not force
it.
Robert Meagher has
been ordained as an Interfaith Minister and certified as a Sacred Attention Therapy (SAT) Therapist. Robert is the Founder and Spiritual
Director for Spiritual Guidance and Co-Founder of the Center for Human Awakening.